Hi Adrienne. You and I share about the same amount of time. I think August 13th was 14 months for me too! 😊 I had over 7 months prior to a massive relapse during the lockdowns. The view of my carnage is still quite vivid, so it’s hard for me to miss that. Lol. Any actual joy or relief that I was able to squeeze out of alcohol died, but being an addict, I made sure to squeeze out ever bit of misery as well!!!! Absence of pain can feel quite euphoric. 😂 All this time I thought I was experiencing a long lasting “pink cloud”, I was more likely feeling the emotional turmoil leaking out of me. 😛