I feel this. After limiting my news intake for several days, a story on NPR that reported on the sudden uptick of phrases like "Get back in the kitchen!" directed at women on social media, completely ruined my night. (And I'm a large, "white-looking" man) It was so nice not having to worry about that monster. I dreaded the possibility of his return, but I suspected he might get back into power, one way or another.
You're not alone. Millions of us stand with you. We need to do whatever is necessary to preserve ourselves and our psychological well-being. I think avoiding all news about him as much as humanly possibly is a good idea.
Thanks for sharing. 😢