Wow. The fact that you’re willing to share this experience is amazing. What your mom did was nothing short of evil. She knowingly constructed a pipe bomb before she checked out, designed to f*ck you up, and you’re surviving it. I’m awed by that. What you’re learning from this and how you’re working to resolve it can be of value to many of us. Your strength is admired by this reader and I hope you continue share the things you’re discovering on your healing journey. Best wishes!